Deployed? No, But It Feels Like It

Today my husband left to go back to Ky. and left me wondering when is our life going to be normal again?
It has literally been years since I have felt like things are normal. Deployed? No, but it sure does feel like it.

Before he got stationed at Ft. Campbell he was a Senior Drill Instructor at Ft. Benning and let me just tell you a Drill Sergeant is never ever home unless there's no Joe's to train and there's always Joe's to train. He worked seven days a week from 3:00 a.m till he got home at 10:00 p.m and sometimes not at all depending on the training phase, but at least we got to live together.

Then came a promotion and a new duty station...He left I didn't follow. Why? Because we thought he was going to retire so we bought a house, we have two kids in high school that he wanted to stabilize for their last few years of school and too many pets. So off he went and here I stayed and six months later he was deployed to Afghanistan.

The deployment was hard, it was lonely and on occasion it was down right terrifying, but now he's back and everyone that was deployed is back with their families readjusting to life, getting on with life but here we are still apart and nine more months to go...it still feels like a deployment to me....it's still hard, it's still lonely and I'm still wondering how I'm going to do it without screaming TIME OUT I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!

No, it's not deployment but it sure still feels like it.